I used to be healthy, like, seven, years ago. And then I had my second baby. I came out of the C section, and the feeling in my legs never came back. I ignored it for like, five months thinking it was just a side effect of the C-section. And then I fell carrying my baby. My mom told me to get to the hospital something's wrong. They diagnosed me with M.S.
When you have kids, you would do anything that will keep you around for longer. I researched all the miracle treatments in the States. And spent our life savings on them.
First, we tried Chronic cerebrospinal venous insufficiency, where they insert a balloon in your neck and widen the vein. It didn’t do anything to stop the progression. Then, we went to California for stem cell treatments. It sounded so promising. They accumulated stem cells for several days then injected them into my spine. But, they couldn’t find my spinal cord, and it took 24 needles to find it. I was so sore the next day, and that didn’t do anything to stop the progression either. Then four years ago, my neurologist offered chemotherapy, and I took it. I stayed in the hospital for a month. I lost all my hair. I had to have a blood transfusion because my stem cells went to zero. It was hell, and I could have died. But, it was worth it. It stopped my relapses.
Now, I’m learning to accept it.
It’s my legs that are affected the most. I have a golf cart and a walker I can take outside to feed the animals and garden. I have a bunch of workout stuff around my living room, and of course, my animals keep me happy.
I started reading books by Rhonda Byrne. The Secret, The Power, The Magic, The Hero. Also, the book Heal your Life. They are so inspirational and majorly changed my outlook on M.S. I learned about inner power, positive thinking, and how I can create happiness, and health in my life. I've affirmations written all over my house. Like, I am healthy. I am happy. I'm free.
It has taken time. But I’ve learned I can either make myself better or I can make myself worse. I’m choosing to make myself better.